The universe has provided many opportunities to learn and grow. In most cases, I was not aware of the lessons or was not ready for the lesson to be internalized.


Today, I went to the professional development on Thinking Maps. One thing I took from the workshop was creating five impacts that have shaped who you are.

Today, I am grateful the universe has continued to provide me lessons that the things I say and do has a consequence.   

No one ever said the journey one has to take to better themselves is easy.  During this journey so far, I was not in the right state of mind.  Even though there is no possibility of getting together, my mind is playing tricks again. Hungry for love, I reminded my brain that everyday and every way, I love myself. The feeling for J disappears and the feeling of love is within.

Over the last couple of nights, my mind was playing the same scene over and over again.  That scene  lingered in my mind, wondering if I said the right thing.
After days of wondering if I said the right thing, I decided to turn to reflect on this blog, hopefully by doing so, I will internalize the life lesson learned.

I had feelings for J for the longest time.  She had it all, her physical beauty matching her internal beauty, a pleasant voice (especially when she sings), she is witty, down to earth girl, the type of girl I can see myself being with and above all, the type of girl your family would love.

At the time, J was in a relationship with a guy who took her for granted.  He did not spend time with her, he would spend time with his ex, running his business, watching MMA fights, or fixing his car.

Enough was enough, J decided to no longer be in the toxic relationship.

My journey for this lesson begins when I professed my feelings toward J. I should have realized that perhaps that was a hasty move, she was still healing from her recent break-up.  As classy as she is, she told me it was a bad timing that she is not ready to go out with a guy.

A month or two down the road, I decided to ask her out again. Again, she said it was bad timing.

Fast forward to another two months, I asked her about whether she sees a future with us and that there is a program to help 40 women bring in their Twin Flames/ Soul Mates/ Life Partners at the end of March. She said she does not see a future with us and wished me the best of luck in my endeavors. 

Learning from my past experiences, it appears that I was an overly-eager person much similar to a man serving time and his excitement for women. From this point on, I just need to take one day at a time, without thinking of getting married or any other expectations.  Getting married is a life-long commitment, one should not make hasty decisions.

• Continue to be friendly to everyone. Again, don't have expectations. If they want to hang, just be cool about it. If not, don't get hung up on it, I got things that I need to work on (work, working out, getting out of debt, reflecting). 
• When talking to people, conversation needs to have a purpose.  (Don't say things for the sake of saying things, it needs to either inform, entertain, or persuade. If talking does not serve a purpose, I don't need to disclose. Wanting people to feel good is the key).  
• Love comes within, not from external factors.
• Be compassionate toward another person (Refrain from judging, have an open mind and open heart)
• Give space to people (literally and figuratively), if they are attracted to you, they will move in.
• Trust in the universe.