Hearts on Fire

Since the last entry, I had been feeling depressed and unmotivated.  I had a slump, all of which was caused and inflected by myself.  This past weekend was a great learning experience. Friday, I asked out Garnet, a substitute behavior interventionist for one of my students to attend a pot luck dinner.  She attended but I did not pay attention to her. My friends noted she was bored out of her mind. I was too busy cooking to give any attention to her.  Never realized that I inflected pain towards anyone, especially a girl I asked out.

From this moment, I learned that I need to work on myself and that I should not under any circumstance neglect anyone especially since I invited a person to a social event.

The day after, I 

While reading "Awaken the Giant Within," chapter 1 talked about raising my standards
In life, there will be many tests that I will go through, as a man I am, I need to stick to my guns.


Things I longer accept in my life
 -
-Indecisiveness
-Negative behavior that harms/hinders me to become me to the fullest potential
(addiction, slacking off, self doubting, procrastination)

Things I no longer tolerate
-Bullying
-Belittling
-Negativity.
-Injustice

Things I aspire to become...
a positive, social, righteous, loyal, straight-forward individual, a man of my word, detailed oriented, living in the present, goal oriented man.

As Tony Robbins noted, I need to find a role model.  I need to find what they are doing, what their core beliefs are, and how they think.

Knowing is not enough, I must take action.

While at Starbucks... met a 50 year old guy who looks remarkable for his age.  I thought he was in his 40s, he credits his looks with nutrition and fitness.
I noticed he had some satote. The taste of satote has a custard taste that melt in your mouth.

Satote, Santa Monica Farmer's Market. (arizona and second) on Wednesdays 8am-1pm. Farmer Micheal.
Daveed.com
Hatha Yoga., Yoga for beginners.on Youtube.
Shifting what really matters...Prioritizing.

Sibil, Chinese Tutor
The Future Is Now
The joy and misery of this world he declared, is the result of our own karma...reminds me when I enrolled in the Landmark Forum course.  The class provided everything is all on me and that I have a tendency to put meaning to everything.  It is what it is.  Often times, I had a tendency to add emotions and over think scenarios. The what ifs were always in my mind.
I am the catalyst of my life.

Persevering until success.

Currently reading Team Secrets of Navy Seals, I have been setting off this book to a side for the longest time.  I have no one else to blame but myself. As I was reading, I came across how these men who were training to become Navy Seals finally completed the task of carrying a log over their shoulders with 12 attempts. 

Lately, I have been feeling down about myself. Over eating and lack of motivation to work on myself (physically, spiritually, professionally, and financially) consumed me.  At that moment, I felt alone. I can tell you  now that what I experienced was all in my head.  I have to thank my sister for addressing that I haven't been working on myself.

The NAVY SEALS had physical and mental limitations had they not be in sync with each other. At this moment, I am trying to find a way to work together with my mom and perhaps find a solution to help my sister out.

While on the phone with David, David noted that family will always be there especially through the good, bad, and ugly.  It was difficult trying to converse with mom, not just because of language barriers but I always feel judged and criticized.  Again, I have been living in my head.

I am looking forward to the next stage of my life.  Yes, I know there will be some obstacles, I  have to have a game plan and keep trying until I reach the desired goal I want.  Of course, once I reach the goal, then I should set new goals.