Hearts on Fire

Since the last entry, I had been feeling depressed and unmotivated.  I had a slump, all of which was caused and inflected by myself.  This past weekend was a great learning experience. Friday, I asked out Garnet, a substitute behavior interventionist for one of my students to attend a pot luck dinner.  She attended but I did not pay attention to her. My friends noted she was bored out of her mind. I was too busy cooking to give any attention to her.  Never realized that I inflected pain towards anyone, especially a girl I asked out.

From this moment, I learned that I need to work on myself and that I should not under any circumstance neglect anyone especially since I invited a person to a social event.

The day after, I 

While reading "Awaken the Giant Within," chapter 1 talked about raising my standards
In life, there will be many tests that I will go through, as a man I am, I need to stick to my guns.


Things I longer accept in my life
 -
-Indecisiveness
-Negative behavior that harms/hinders me to become me to the fullest potential
(addiction, slacking off, self doubting, procrastination)

Things I no longer tolerate
-Bullying
-Belittling
-Negativity.
-Injustice

Things I aspire to become...
a positive, social, righteous, loyal, straight-forward individual, a man of my word, detailed oriented, living in the present, goal oriented man.

As Tony Robbins noted, I need to find a role model.  I need to find what they are doing, what their core beliefs are, and how they think.

Knowing is not enough, I must take action.

While at Starbucks... met a 50 year old guy who looks remarkable for his age.  I thought he was in his 40s, he credits his looks with nutrition and fitness.
I noticed he had some satote. The taste of satote has a custard taste that melt in your mouth.

Satote, Santa Monica Farmer's Market. (arizona and second) on Wednesdays 8am-1pm. Farmer Micheal.
Daveed.com
Hatha Yoga., Yoga for beginners.on Youtube.
Shifting what really matters...Prioritizing.

Sibil, Chinese Tutor
The Future Is Now
The joy and misery of this world he declared, is the result of our own karma...reminds me when I enrolled in the Landmark Forum course.  The class provided everything is all on me and that I have a tendency to put meaning to everything.  It is what it is.  Often times, I had a tendency to add emotions and over think scenarios. The what ifs were always in my mind.
I am the catalyst of my life.