Green Grass

I was complaining to Terry about how the grass was greener on the other side, how everyone seemed to be successful (being in a relationship, owning a house, being able to travel). I also noted how the girl I went out on a date was not interested in going out with me.  Initially, I felt rejected, the truth is that I need to work on my body language and aura conveyed negative energy.


I had a self realization that I should do things that make me happy. An abstract concept and at this moment, I have a difficult time grasping abstract concepts, I figured I should come up with a list that makes me happy.  Having trouble listing, I decided to use the Internet to come up with possible activities that I would enjoy.  It came down to being around nature, kayaking, and cooking.


Terry also pointed out that a possible reason why the date might not be interested in going out with me is how I have a lack of empathy, how I do not have a connection with the other person.  Trying to visualize myself in others' situations and being curious about the other person is an essential foundation to strengthen my empathy skills.

Hearing about Tai Yen, how he spent Thanksgiving by himself, I began thinking I could end up like him when I get to his age. Tai, a 52 year old man who has been unemployed for at least 4 years refuses to work on himself (physically, job opportunities, living situation, goals). I felt inspired, after all, my life is what I make out of it.   I can either feel sorry about life or do something about it. If I do not work on myself, I will end up like Tai.

Today is a new day, a fresh start. My lawn has an abundant of blooming tulips. Today, I am glad Terry talked about my recurring issues. I am grateful to have friends that look out for me.