Today, as I was gassing up at the Chevron station, I went down memory lane.  At the time, I was gassing at the Chevron station when I saw two Korean women about 70-80 years old with limited English seemed lost so I offered take them to their destination somewhere in K-town.  

Achievement

Growing up from a Chinese family, striving for achievement was embedded in me ever since I was conceived, it was a sense of accomplishment and relief knowing that I am victorious against my brothers, all 100 million of them.  Competing against 100 million was a daunting task, I was glad I did not have to go through that again.

Or so I thought.
When I was apartment shopping, I wanted to live closer to work.  I looked at apartments around Culver City and they were too expensive especially for a first year teacher.  I decided to look toward the ghetto.  When I came across an apartment in Hawthorne, I fell in love with the 800 square foot space.  With out any hesitation, I gave a deposit for the apartment.  I was proud to say living in my own space, going by my rules, and knowing that I can be independent was one of my greater achievements. Up until then, I lived  at home.  The journey I needed to embark was living in the ghettos. A strip club around the corner, barbed windows everywhere, and hearing the sounds of gun shots firing and people moaning was a life-changing experience.  Over the course of the time I spent living in my apartment, I began transforming into a man who exuded confidence, a man who was radiating with light, above all, a man who puts one pant leg at a time.   

doctor notes

March 18
Went to see Dr. Tse-Ling Fong
He said he suspected 5 years ago that Janice had Wilson's Disease and he felt bad that the HMO has taken action until recently.  He noted that the HMO has denied assessments until recently when situations got worse (water in her lungs, bronchitis, being admitted to the emergency room)
When I thanked him, he said he felt bad that HMO has not provided services for her until now.
Dr. Tse-Ling Fong recommended that my sister should see a speech pathologist because she could not swallow. Dr. Fong referred to the optometrist chart and confirmed that Janice has Wilson's Disease.  He also noted that there is no more further assessments needed for her condition.


Two weeks prior to March 18 , Janice has fallen numerous times within the week.  Dr. Sunny Wong suggested her to go to ER. Two days later,  I noted that her eye was puffy then he recommended for physical therapy and optomerist. NOTE: October 2013, Janice was using the wheelchair even though she has been seeing Dr. Wong on a regular basis.

A couple months ago, Janice has noted cuts and bruises, hips, inner thigh, Janice has told Dr. Wong recently but he did not provide a solution or remedy.

Day 1
My life entails me living the 007 life. When I say the 007 life, I mean being witty, charming, charismatic, mysterious, financially stable, passionate, powerful. I exude alpha through my body language, speech, thoughts, actions.

Physically: 12% BMI, partake an Ironman, Spartan races, climb Mt. Kilimanjaro
Financially: Debt free
Spiritually: meditation, seeing God in everything and everyone
Personal: Finish reading Way of Peaceful Warrior and Seals, travel to see auroa borealis, Machu Picchu, Thailand, hang glide, swim with sharks.
Professional: finish IEPs, write a progress report, BCBA certification, PRT certification, Common Core

I own a house that I restored, open floor concept, fire place in living room and master bedroom, stainless steel kitchen, spa like bathroom
I own an Astro Martin that I restored.
My travel plans include: Thailand, Peru, Australia, Italy, Spain

Hearts on Fire

Since the last entry, I had been feeling depressed and unmotivated.  I had a slump, all of which was caused and inflected by myself.  This past weekend was a great learning experience. Friday, I asked out Garnet, a substitute behavior interventionist for one of my students to attend a pot luck dinner.  She attended but I did not pay attention to her. My friends noted she was bored out of her mind. I was too busy cooking to give any attention to her.  Never realized that I inflected pain towards anyone, especially a girl I asked out.

From this moment, I learned that I need to work on myself and that I should not under any circumstance neglect anyone especially since I invited a person to a social event.

The day after, I 

While reading "Awaken the Giant Within," chapter 1 talked about raising my standards
In life, there will be many tests that I will go through, as a man I am, I need to stick to my guns.


Things I longer accept in my life
 -
-Indecisiveness
-Negative behavior that harms/hinders me to become me to the fullest potential
(addiction, slacking off, self doubting, procrastination)

Things I no longer tolerate
-Bullying
-Belittling
-Negativity.
-Injustice

Things I aspire to become...
a positive, social, righteous, loyal, straight-forward individual, a man of my word, detailed oriented, living in the present, goal oriented man.

As Tony Robbins noted, I need to find a role model.  I need to find what they are doing, what their core beliefs are, and how they think.

Knowing is not enough, I must take action.

While at Starbucks... met a 50 year old guy who looks remarkable for his age.  I thought he was in his 40s, he credits his looks with nutrition and fitness.
I noticed he had some satote. The taste of satote has a custard taste that melt in your mouth.

Satote, Santa Monica Farmer's Market. (arizona and second) on Wednesdays 8am-1pm. Farmer Micheal.
Daveed.com
Hatha Yoga., Yoga for beginners.on Youtube.
Shifting what really matters...Prioritizing.

Sibil, Chinese Tutor
The Future Is Now
The joy and misery of this world he declared, is the result of our own karma...reminds me when I enrolled in the Landmark Forum course.  The class provided everything is all on me and that I have a tendency to put meaning to everything.  It is what it is.  Often times, I had a tendency to add emotions and over think scenarios. The what ifs were always in my mind.
I am the catalyst of my life.

Persevering until success.

Currently reading Team Secrets of Navy Seals, I have been setting off this book to a side for the longest time.  I have no one else to blame but myself. As I was reading, I came across how these men who were training to become Navy Seals finally completed the task of carrying a log over their shoulders with 12 attempts. 

Lately, I have been feeling down about myself. Over eating and lack of motivation to work on myself (physically, spiritually, professionally, and financially) consumed me.  At that moment, I felt alone. I can tell you  now that what I experienced was all in my head.  I have to thank my sister for addressing that I haven't been working on myself.

The NAVY SEALS had physical and mental limitations had they not be in sync with each other. At this moment, I am trying to find a way to work together with my mom and perhaps find a solution to help my sister out.

While on the phone with David, David noted that family will always be there especially through the good, bad, and ugly.  It was difficult trying to converse with mom, not just because of language barriers but I always feel judged and criticized.  Again, I have been living in my head.

I am looking forward to the next stage of my life.  Yes, I know there will be some obstacles, I  have to have a game plan and keep trying until I reach the desired goal I want.  Of course, once I reach the goal, then I should set new goals.  

Today

Today is a day of reflection. After hanging out with Sandy and Terry today at the fair, they reminded me that...
I needed to be non reactive, walking at the same pace as the girl, asking open ended questions, try to find the subtleness (what they are into and whether or not they are interested in you.), being vague and mysterious, don't necessary ask for a girl's number unless its subtle. Be aloof. Try to be everybody's friend...don't pressure for anything else.